2021
This was a dream remembrance whereby Rhio (and, yes, Rhio does indeed seemingly much prefer me to use that particular name, rather than Dolores btw) was laying prone with her back/head against my chest - with me seemingly in a sitting position, immediately behind her...
Whereby She simply said, 'I still love you you know' - something that later (upon me gaining full consciousness) seemingly 'morphed' slightly into, 'I am still in love with you you know'...
With me then inclining my head in order to kiss Rhio affectionately on the top of Her head - before, in my rather clumsy/analytical way, explaining that i now knew what love was, and felt the same towards Her...
...Rather than simply saying, 'i love You also' in return - i think i simply felt the need to show Her that i now know what love is...
...Which reminds me - i must type and publish that 'What Is Love???' blog that i, perhaps, should have really done yesterday...
Such a dream snippet was a great, doubt assuaging, confirmation that such perceived I/interactions between the T/two of U/us (during my awake/conscious times/periods) are in actual fact real ones - from my perspective, at least...
What i/We really love about being within each others C/company is that W/we both feel really relaxed and completely comfortable / at ease/peace with one-another (similar to two peas in a pod perhaps) - it is such a lovely/fulfilling feeling that both of U/us seem to cherish/enjoy...
...But a situation that is seemingly only temporary - for, seemingly, i have to move on, sometime after my physical 'death', to somewhere where i will fit in much more readily (a place that will seemingly be much more suitable for me - and therefore an environment within which i will be much happier)...
...Tis a future situation, of seeming inevitability, that is a somewhat unwelcoming one, for Rhio especially - but one that we are trying to remedy by staying in / enjoying each passing moment together - with a simple acceptance that there will seemingly come an upsetting moment in time whereby i will have to go my separate way...
...An unwelcoming moment that will hopefully be softened/cushioned by my promise/determination/resolve to return when it is Rhio's time to move onwards/forwards (if i am indeed able to do so - something that Rhio says i will indeed be able to do, if i wish to btw - and something that i Received conformation of, during today's earlier walkies) also...
Such a dream snippet seemingly came after Rhio and i had spent the second consecutive night together (upon Rhio's perceived consecutive daytime requests btw - and yes, we do indeed intend to spend more consecutive night-times together) - after having seemingly been apart for a while (but more of (the seeming reasons for) that later - well maybe/perhaps anyway)...
They are seemingly very fulfilling and enjoyable periods of time for U/us both, after all - times whereby, this morning especially, i awakened once again, into this world / physical reality, both with a renewed 'spring in my step', as well as a certain feeling of sadness, due to such temporary/cyclical periods/times of perceived separation...